### This is the post I wrote before "what a difference a day makes". Emma has now read it as a draft and said that a lot of people would relate so I'm sharing.###
How do you convey the tipping point of a man who has been broken by the merciless task of looking after his own daughter?
I am REALLY struggling over here.
Emma is working from 0700 - 0000 every day, missing out on bath time and general cuddle time.
She is therefore not able also to do anything around the house or generally help with anything.
If she comes down for a coffee, she will make funny faces / cuddle Emilia for the time it takes the kettle to boil then she's back upstairs til the next coffee break or I take lunch up to her.
She is therefore not able also to do anything around the house or generally help with anything.
If she comes down for a coffee, she will make funny faces / cuddle Emilia for the time it takes the kettle to boil then she's back upstairs til the next coffee break or I take lunch up to her.
When I was working, my shift pattern meant that I would sometimes work 7 night shifts in a row and so I would be effectively useless for 7 days but Emma has been like this for 3 weeks!
I'm also struggling with the heat / humidity. I don't have the motivation / energy to do the housework and am doing the least amount I can to keep afloat instead of actually doing a proper job.
Most worryingly this attitude has slipped into my parenting too. I'm sure that I've put her to bed during the day because I was tired rather than her. Not deliberately, but I've thought I've seen tired signs and put her down, only to have to go back and get her 5 minutes later because she has no intention of going to sleep!
So, in summary, I have no wife, the house is a bomb-site, the animals are lacking in the attention they need, I'm knackered and I think I could be doing a better job with my daughter. Sound like social services need to get involved yet, or just another day as a stay-at-home-dad?
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